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I finally quit my old job and found something new and closer to home.  I like it so far.  All of the people I work with seem smart; I think I might be the only one in my department without an MBA.  The company I’m working for does tuition reimbursement, so that might change though.  I’m not really doing accounting anymore.  I’m in more of an operations role, although I help the marketing department with some random invoicing and accruals. I am kind of concerned because I get all of my work done by 10:00 every morning, so I’m not really sure why they hired me.  Hopefully I can get started on some new projects.

Heather hasn’t been able to find a full time job, but she sporadically gets substituting jobs (which don’t really pay much.)  Money is tight.  I’m basically paycheck to paycheck.  It sucks working all the time and not having cash for hobbies or travel. (Not that I have the time for travel either).  I guess I should be happy that I have a job at all, considering where I live.  There are about to be a bunch of changes at the new company, so my hope is that somewhere in that commotion, I can come out ahead of where I am.

I haven’t been updating the blog like I’d like to.  I’ve been staying off of the internet at the new job, so I get my “fix” when I get home now.  I get home and kind of just “veg” out on the laptop, and haven’t really been inspired to update.  I never transitioned my little “idea” booklet over to this new job, but I plan on doing so starting tomorrow.  I had a couple of random ideas in there, but nothing worth noting.  My “commute” is much shorter now, so I’m not doing the Pimsleur Spanish on my way to work anymore.  I need to focus on the language learning if I want to ever make any real progress.

I just finished the Autobiography of Malcom X as told to Alex Haley.  It’s interesting and definitely worth the read.  I find people who can inspire change like that incredibly captivating.  I never knew much about Malcom X before reading the book. (To be honest, I kind of just knew him as a more militant Martin Luther King Jr., which was incredibly naive.)  I see why so many black Americans were drawn to him, and although stark and shocking, a lot of what he had to say was truthful.  The book has me rethinking some of my thoughts on religion.

I don’t believe in any organized religion.  I don’t think anything about them are literally true. (For example, I think Jesus existed, but I don’t think he had super powers.)  But at the same time I recognize how powerful a united belief can be in transforming a people.  I think unity in any form can be powerful, but when people are united on subjects such as eternal life or right and wrong, it seems to be a more powerful bond.  It can also instill positive habits and can genuinely benefit people, true or not.  Of course, religion can also be used for nefarious reasons as well: crusades, suicide bombings, imperialism in the name of savior, etc.  But I’m not so sure that those things wouldn’t happen without religion anyway.  If religion weren’t there to co-opt, those things would still happen, but just via plain old vanilla  nationalism (which can almost be religious in and of itself.)

The religion issue is something I’d like to explore more. There has to be a way to organize people to achieve the same benefits of religion while at the same time recognizing the fact that God likely doesn’t exist.  I guess there has to be some sort of thing to “believe” in for it to be unifying.  Maybe a group of people who just believe that living life in a certain manner will lead to a better life.  I guess that’s kind of what Buddhism is all about in a way.  I guess what I’m looking for is a group of people who believe in unity and positive actions for the sake of unity and positive actions – not because they believe they are being watched and judged by some supreme being.  Maybe this will be a subject of a future post when I gain some more perspective.

To change gears a little, I just discovered some new music that I absolutely love.  I was listening to my Black Keys station on Pandora and a song called “Stroker Ace” by Lovage came on.  I liked it enough to email myself the name of the song and group.  It’s from 2001, so I was in either 10th or 11th grade when it came out.   (It’s a shame I never knew music like this existed back then.)

I went and downloaded the entire album: Music to Make Love to Your Old Lady By. It’s awesome.  It’s very trip hoppy.  It’s kind of like a seedier, dirtier, Portishead. Almost like Goldfrap but not as polished? Maybe more organic.  It’s not just female vocals though; I don’t want to give off that impression.  It has a very methodical, driving feeling to it- I’m sure I’m going to play the crap out of it over the next week or so.

Anyway, that’s where my life has been the last month or three.  I have a lot of half-completed thoughts in my head.  I’m hoping to at least document them somewhere before they vanish into nothingness. Hopefully keeping the little book with me at all times will help there.